Assalamualaikum
Finally, its me. After a while of idle, i am back and hoping writing here would be boosted by remembering the fun of doing this.
I always have the passion when blogging, once. then, when im too busy of doing endless work (call it, house chores or even work tasks), i am exhausted to the max where my mind has less space to be occupied with blogging. Did you know that blogging really need your patience, idea and MOOD? When all these 3 are not there, so... hey..... i will hibernate! (evil giggling).
The reason why, i started blogging again? because im bored of writing traditionally in my diary. so, typing here using keyboard is less tiring! haha.
hmmm. actually, i need to jot down the date so that i will always remember what happened to me, to my family or anything that i shouldnt forgotten.
So, here it is. The date was 19th March, 2021.
He did something terrible to my son. to be exact, his son too. He slapped him while U is still eating, and i can see him taken aback and cried immediately. U cried out loud because he was surprised and even to my surprise, it was loud. his Slapped was loud and his face was so fierce while doing so and i cried after seeing Umar being slapped. I stopped eating. I asked U to wash his hand and started comforting him. i couldnt even stopped sobbing because, its hard to see your own son being treated harsh while eating. Even U did wrong, u always have choices to correct them prudently.
i dont even know what else i should say to him at that moment. I hugged Umar, because i know, even how harsh he is being treated, he always look up to us. we are parents, but we failed to show good example on how to raise a son to be obedient. kids always being kids. Kids are not maleficious. they just wanna try anything to make sure that they got want they wanted. but if its not fit for them to have em, we should educate them by explaining why. if we hated they way our parents raised us before, why should we do the same to our kids??
i feel helpless.
i just wanna run.
i called M. i told him what happened to U. I always seek for M whenever the confusions hit me hard. I feel calm whenever M advised me what to do next or what should i do to remain calm. sometimes i just need M to release whatever feeling juggle within me.
thats it. thats the only thing i wanna post.
i will remember this date forever.
after seeing Anna's post, i fervently wants to be a wonderful mom to my only son (current).
O' Allah, pls help me. and Guide me to raise a child that soon to be a Khalifah in this world.
Amin.
Amin.
Amin.
Ya Rabbal Alamin...
p.s.: today, a land rover did hit and run & im gonna chase him.
